For you.

Say what you want; but do not criticize the life I live, for I live in the moment and I love it. You will never achieve my status; and that is what separates us, the Winners and the Losers, the Pretties and the Uglies.

Memories hold our hand, People let go.

Sometimes you need to put the past behind, and
the saddest aside. You need to forget everything
you ever felt; your feelings, your thoughts. Everything
that was ever there. Because you cant get hurt if you dont care, right?
or maybe its just when you least expect it, you start to think about how
that person made you laugh, how you feel when you're around them and then
you realize that after all this time, you cared about that
person more than you thought you did; OR maybe you should
hope for the best, prepare for the worst, expect nothing,
and you'll never get hurt, isnt that how that one saying goes?
You cant help missing someone. Wether its break ups, death,
torn apart friendship, ..or all of the above (some how?) its just impossible
to stop missing them, i mean.. until you can get them out of your mind.
But when you start concentrating on forgetting them, you find yourself
thinking about them more than you would be without the whole concentration.
Maybe im just rambling about "forgetting your past" .. but im trying to get
my point across. Its a new year, and everyone for sure has promising things
that let you know that 2009 is going to be different. Whether the difference
is bad or good, I guess that much is up to you. Nothing is ever as bad as it
seems unless you make it seem that way, you know? I saw it somewhere that
the key of change is to let go of fear. and that might make more sense
to you. Sometimes I wish I could pick out the bad memories that I want to forget
and some how press a delete button, and bam.. they are gone forever. But its
never going to be that simple. Life isnt hard so that it can tear you apart, its only
as hard as you can handle. It some how makes you stronger, whether you look at
it like that or not. So I guess the point is, you cant control the feelings. I mean,
even if they're wrong, theyre still there. Youre gunna live until you die.
If you could go back and change just one thing about your life, would you?
And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change
ultimately break your heart? Or the heart of another? Would you choose an
entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing? Because that one thing
you changed would throw you off completely. Who knows, though. Everything
Ive done has gotten me to this exact point in time, and I wouldnt change a thing.
Not even the bad things, even though most of us would think we would like to.
Think about the world if we were all numb. We couldnt feel pain, whoopie.
But then we wouldnt feel joy either. So when I think about the past, where
its gotten me, how much pain its caused me, and how much joy its broughten,
it pretty much evens out. Now, the future - its coming. But stop making plans,
and start making sense.(haha, the academy is..) All these people with "trust issues"
and boundaries & fears, gosh, sooo overrated. Youve got one life, just like
everybody else. and yeah I realize that statement is overrated too, but if you
really think about it, it makes perfect sense. Your future is yours! People are going to
say dont do this, dont do that, but you know what your going to end up with?
Nothing to do. This isnt a note trying to motivate you to change the world or anything,
just something on my mind. I just dont think were all quite ready for what were about to be.
All im really trying to say is the past is the past for a reason. Dont let it stand in the way.
Move on, and get a hold of yourself. You wont always get that second chance. Much Love.

Life.

-Don't try so hard; The best things in life come when you least expect it.-

Regret is the worst of human emotions. There is no going back with regret. There is no future with regret.
Regret is not something that I live with. If there's something that I wish I hadn't done, I don't do it anymore, or I forgive myself and try harder. My life is my statement, and I try to be true to myself and to other people. Whatever my failings are, they're human and I try to perfect them each day.
At no point in like are you going to be able to make everyone happy. So do what you want, be who you want to be, and don't let anyone tell you you're wrong for it. No one is perfect. So maybe before you judge someone you should first look at yourself. That is whats wrong with the world today. No one says how they feel. They always hold it in. If there sad, the don't cry. If there happy, they don't sing or dance about it. If there angry, they dont scream. Because if they do, they feel ashamed.
That is the worst feeling anymore in this world.
So everyone walks with there head dons, and no one sees how beautiful the sky is.
Obstacles are put in our lifes to see if we really want something, or if we just thought we did.

This is for every girl who talked about me in the corner of parties, to those who were my slap in the face. To the close minded; or misunderstood. To those boys that broke my hear, and the friends that turned out to be backstabbers. You have all challenged me to become the person I am, and who I want to be. I am stronger than all of the stupid things that you put me through. No matter how much you have done to me; You have Unknowingly done so much for me.
So thanks
I think I should win an Oscar for acting like everything is okay, when im really dying inside; dying from every time life takes a wrong turn and ends up at a dead end. I found out that some times you just have to realize that you cant have it all. You cant fix what youve done.
you need to move on and try to be happy, even if its the hardest thing you'll ever have to do. It requires more courage to suffer than die. Everything was harder than we ever expected or realized it to be.
Its so easy to get caught up in what people think and expect of you.
Sometimes you just lose yourself.
I was beginning to lose hope that I would ever find myself. The truth was getting harder and I was running from one problem to another. I felt pulled in all directions, like I was fighting to keep all of these obligations circling in the air above me. It was only a matter of time before something fell.
I remember when I use to be the loudest, happiest, funniest girl in the world Nothing ever got me down for long at least.
I smiled non stop
all the time. I still see glimpses of that girl sometimes; I miss her, she was a good kid.

We live in a world of worse case scenarios.
We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best, because many times the best doesn't happen.
But every now and then, something Extraordinary happens, and suddenly best case scenarios seem possible. Every now and again something, and its amazing. And against our better judgment, we start to dream again. Every single second counts. Every Moment leads up to now. Remember that.




[She moves with grace, even when she stumbles and trips. You'll hear a break of laughter as she smiles.
Perfection is there, if you look past the first layer of insecurities thats where you'll see a person worth listening too. The person most people try and find themselves in. Thats the person that she never sees when she looks at herself in the mirror.
Not even close]